Sunday, March 28, 2021

Always In Our Hearts....

  Two months before Ted's  Acute Myeloid Leukemia diagnoses.. During a walk ,after lunch with my daughter Kathy. 
 Eleven days before, getting tested at Ted's heart doctor's, to see why he was feeling so weak.  Sent to Riverview in Noblesville for heart cath. That is where they took his first bone biopsy to check for leukemia. The results sent to Dr. Birhiray. 
 After two big chemo treatments at the Saint Vincent hospital on 86th street in Indianapolis. Those chemo treatments, were given by doctor Birhiray, a great oncology doctor. Ted received a bone marrow transplant  by doctor Tandra, shown here, at the Indiana Blood Marrow Transplant  clinic group, in the Franciscan hospital on Emerson avenue in Indianapolis. Then many maintenance chemo treatments , after the transplant. 
 Always giving us the victory sign for how he was going to beat this cancer. 
Through the whole battle he fought. 
Giving his all and then some. 
 Even when you could tell it was wearing him out, he fought.
 My sweet loving Ted had many things happening all at once, more than his weaken body could take.  God took him to heaven on the 10th of March.  No more pain,  tests,  hospitals, or doctors.  Ted's pain was gone and ours began. Heartache is so real . Longing can be in every fiber of your being.
   Thank you dear friends for all the prayers, well wishes and cards. I am taking a break for now.  I will return.  Bless all of you. XO
 

80 comments:

  1. My heart aches for you, Susie. May you be comforted by your memories of your husband and the good times you had together. It's good to hear from you, but, take as long a break as you need.

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  2. I am so very sorry for your loss. Prayers said and love sent.

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  3. Words can't say what I feel about your news. It's so sad to know that your beloved husband has gone. Thankfully for him, he has no pain any more, but it's always so hard for the ones that are left. It's nice you have your memories now.
    Love Elzie

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  4. You are in my thoughts and prayers dear one. Thankfully Ted's pain and suffering, is no more. Hold his memories close in your heart, they will be the strength you'll draw on, to see you through.
    Much love to you and your family,
    Jo xx

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  5. Dearest Susie, I am so very sorry. My heart hurts for you and your precious family for the loss of such a wonderful man. Praying for you for the days ahead. Hugs and blessings, Cindy

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  6. Know that I continue to hold you in my prayers. May you have strength and comfort as you go through the difficult days ahead. - xoxo

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  7. Oh Susie, how we love you. Yes, the pain is now yours and the family, but God will give you new mercies every morning. Sending love and hugs.

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  8. Oh Susie..This is certainly a hard time for you and your family..May you gain strength from each other..You will find comfort in your memories..Take care go yourself ..we'll miss you but you will be in our thoughts..Hugs

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  9. He cdertainly fought to stay with you. So sad to hear your news, take care & God bless.

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  10. SO so Sorry. Such a hard thing to have to go through.
    Ted was a fighter but now is at peace. God bless you.

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  11. This is a lovely tribute. Great big hugs from me, Susie. I can only imagine what you and your family are going through right now. -Jenn

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  12. Susie, You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I can relate to what you are going through right now with having lost my spouse three years ago. There is still times that I miss him and want to talk to him, but like you I know he is in a much better place. Sending you gentle hugs . Family will help mom get through it or at least mine did. Take care my friend. Your Missouri friend Shirley

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  13. I'm so very sorry, Susie. Praying for you and your family. God Bless.

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  14. A wonderful tribute. In the days ahead may you find comfort in your memories.

    Blessings.

    All the best Jan

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  15. Susie you are in my prayers. If you ever want to talk, email me and I'll give you my phone number. God bless sweet friend.

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  16. WE say this too many times. Sorry for your loss. Sherry and I have no idea how you must feel, but we know if time continues one of us will. Thinking of you and prayers your way
    Sherry & jack

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  17. Oh I am so very, very sorry!!! I know words could never express how you are feeling. Blessings to you, and I am praying for you for strength and peace.

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  18. So sorry to hear this. We mourn here but in Heaven, rejoicing at his arrival.

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  19. I am so very sorry to hear this..Sending hugs and prayers for you and you family...
    Hugs,
    Debbie

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  20. Susie, I am ever so sorry for the loss of your husband Ted. Yes, no more pain. It was certainly a long hard fight...take some time to reflect and heal...sending you my warm thoughts and prayers.

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  21. So so sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family

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  22. My heart is broken for you, Susie. So many of us have prayed for you and Ted and we will keep our prayers coming for you now. I'm so glad you have your loving family to surround you with personal hugs and care.....I send you hugs from PA! ❤

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  23. My heart breaks with yours. We both suffered great losses around the same time. It is overwhelming to our lives and I promise to continue praying for you my dear friend. Cherish the memories, that's exactly what I am doing. BIG HUGS and PRAYERS coming your way!

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  24. oh susie, there is nothing i can say and i so deeply want to say something magical, something that will make a difference...but those words have yet to be discovered. i am sending you warm hugs that will never be enough. may you find the strength you will need to get through this!!

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  25. I am deeply sorry for your loss. I have followed Ted's journey (and yours as well) for a long time and never commented. Grief is a difficult journey and I've found that the amount of Grief is equal in parts to the amount of love. Go gentle on yourself and take whatever time you need and do what you feel up to only when you feel ready. God bless your family.

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  26. Beautifully said. Praying for you and the family.

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  27. This is lovely, Susie. I know you miss Ted very much. I love that first photo of Ted taking a walk. I am praying for you, Susie, and may God wrap around you like a warm blanket of comfort. Thinking of my dear blog sister.

    ~Sheri

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  28. My heart simply aches for you with all it has, Susie. I'm so glad you were able to share these photos of your handsome Teddy Bear with us here and I hope over time, when your heart allows it, you will continue to share the lovely stories of your life together. You are continually in my thoughts and prayers are you walk this journey of grief. Much love. jeanie

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  29. I am so sorry you lost your wonderful Ted. My heart goes out to you and your daughters. Even in the hospital bed, in all the pictures he was smiling. You must miss him terribly. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Melba

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  30. Dear Susie, I am so sorry for your loss. God is near to the brokenhearted. He is very near.

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  31. Awwww Susie! I'm so sorry for your loss and your resulting grief & sadness. I'm happy it's spring with summer not far behind. You can be outside and let the sun warm your sad bones & spirit. ~Andrea xoxo

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  32. My dear Susie, Please know that you and your family are always in my heart and prayers. Lots of love!

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  33. Hard to type this through tears. Let the love of your great family and many friends surround you at this time. I only wish I could have known your Teddy, what a great guy! xxx

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  34. I am so sorry for your Loss, You and your Family will still be in my Prayers ! My Condolences !!!

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  35. Sending much love to you Susie. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  36. I love you, Susie.
    Debbie xo

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  37. Susie , I love all these photos of Ted. He was such a fighter. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I’m so sorry for your loss. Just think—maybe he and my Tom are up there talking about us😊

    Blessings,
    Gert

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  38. I somehow missed this post. I am so sorry that you lost your sweet husband. I am sending you my prayers. xo Laura

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  39. I'm sorry for your loss. What lovely picture and memories in your heart you surely have. I've been away from blogging and so am just now seeing your post. My heart aches for you.

    Sandy's Space

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  40. Just thinking of you today, Susie. : )

    love, ~Sheri

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  41. My heart aches for you and your family. (((hugs))).
    Praying for the peace that passes all understanding.
    Sue

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  42. Susie,
    Please forgive me for being away so long and now knowing what was happening with Ted. I'm so deeply deeply sorry for your loss...I pray God sends you comfort and peace...

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  43. I'm so sad by this news. I wish you peace and comfort. So many of your blog family are praying for you.

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  44. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I've been busy with my copd and not keeping up with friends. Your photos are so wonderful. I'll be keeping you in my prayers. Hugs, Edna B.

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  45. Sitting here crying for your loss.
    May God keep you in his grace.

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  46. Just reading this, Susie. My heart goes out to you. It has been a year and 8 months since my hubby went to heaven, I miss him every day. May God bless you and give you strengh and courage to go. Love< Sylvia

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  47. There are no words. Thankful for Jesus and the promise of heaven for those who serve Him. Prayers and hugs.

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  48. Hi Susie. I was thinking about you today and wanted to let you know you were in my prayers. Blessings and hugs to you my dear friend.

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  49. Hi Susie, not sure if you check these comments but I just wanted you to know I keep you in my prayers. Take care my friend❤️

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  50. Thinking about you and wanted you to know you are always in my prayers! Sending HUGS and prayers your way my friend!

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  51. Grief is a terrible thing and I want you to know that I am praying for you and your family. xo Laura

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  52. Still thinking of you each day, Susie.

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  54. thinking of you Susie. Please take care of yourself and come back to us when you can. Hugs!

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  55. God Bless you dear friend. I have you on my mind so much and in my prayers. You hold tight to your precious memories. Love you. xoxo

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  56. Popping back in to leave you a ((HUG)). Hope you're doing better each and every day. You no doubt had legal things to deal with to keep you busy for awhile, then trying to adjust. Just take a day at a time. We'll leave the light on for you.
    Sandy's Space

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  57. I'm so sorry Susie. My heart aches for you. I thought you said it very well, his pain has ended, but ours has begun. I know your heart misses him every second of every day. I pray for the healing touch of Jesus to be with you in your loss. Sending hugs and love.

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  58. Susie I have been praying for you sweet friend. This is an incredible loss. I am so sorry I have been tied up with moving but know I have you in my thoughts and prayers. Ted fought hard and he did so well for so long. His love for you and his family and friends kept him fighting. May he rest in God's arms and be free of pain and suffering. Grief is a hard journey and praying you love for Ted will keep you moving through this journey. xoxo

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  59. Hope u can let us know how u r
    Prayers

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  60. Peeking in to say that I think of you often. Sending love...

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  61. Hello Susie, I'm just checking in on you to see how you are doing? I have missed you in blog land, and I wanted to send you a little hello. It's been very hot here lately, but I really like living in the mountains now. Love to you, Susie, and thinking of my dear blog sister.

    ~Sheri

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  62. Susie I wanted to thank you for your kind words today, it was the only way I could think of to , I think of you so so often, I hope it’s getting a little easier each day, , I hope you come back to blogging when you’re ready, you have so much to give, you’re so talented at giving us a personal kind sincere post every time, you’re a breath of fresh air. I know your losing Ted is such a blow, maybe we could all help you find your new normal, sending my love,

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  63. such a sweet man he was, i enjoyed these pictures. i hope you are well susie, i can't even try to imagine how hard it must be!!

    thank you so much for stopping by!!

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  64. Hi Susie, Just Kay stopping by from Georgia. Sending you love. xxx Please know I am thinking of you.

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  66. Susie, I was so sorry to read this news. Ted really was a fighter and you were with him every step of the journey. I pray that you are doing okay. Sending love your way...xo

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  67. i was so happy to hear from you again susie, how are you managing?? i hope you have friends and family around you to help carry you through this difficult time without ted!! there is nothing else to say, nothing can make it better...you were so lucky to have each other!!

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  68. I am so sorry for your loss. I've been there. My husband was at Mayo Clinic and things went from bad to worse and the hardest thing was knowing that his body couldn't take any more. My husband was 54 when he died and I was 46. Sending huge hugs.

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  69. Just wanted to check in and let you know I'm thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers. ((Hugs))

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  70. Oh, sweet, Susie, I've been away for over and year. At that time, he was just recently diagnosed. I am so sorry. I lost my sweet blogging friend, Debby Ray this year after finally getting to meet her. My husband lost one of his best friends to Covid. This is so hard. My prayers will be with you.

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  71. Susie,
    Just checking in from INDY to say I think of you every day. I'm traveling this road with you, just a few months farther along the journey, and send you my own lifting thoughts and prayers for good days, wonderful memories, and sweet sleep. Stay well, my sweet friend.

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  72. Dear Susie, I'm so sorry for your loss and sorry that I didn't see this sooner. I pray that you are okay and that time will heel your broken heart. God Bless

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  73. It was so nice to see your name in my thread. I am always thinking of you!!!

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  74. Just peeking in to say hello and that I have been thinking of you.

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  76. Couldn't stop without saying hello dear one. Hoping you are keeping well and life is getting a little kinder. I think of you often and miss you.
    Take good care,
    Hugs,
    Jo
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