Saturday, April 9, 2022

One Year and One Month

Hello friends.  I am trying to blog, because today is Emma's birthday.  I can not recall how old she is in this baby picture. Don't you love the hair do? 
 Here she is standing with her papaw Teddy.  They were the best of friends. It's been a year and a month since Ted went to heaven. He is so greatly missed.  We always called Emma, our girl. She spent lots of time with us when her mom was fighting breast cancer.  She will graduate high school next month. 

      I am trying to recover from the lose of Ted. He was my true love, my hero, and absolutely my sweetheart. I do see a grief doctor now. Some days I think I am fine and other days I am just lost.

  I have visited blogs and even left comments. You, my blog family have been in my prayers. XO
 

45 comments:

  1. Aww, dearest Susie, such an unexpected and welcomed surprise to see your name in my in box. I have thought of you a hundred times over the year, and sent healing prayers your way. Ted is missed by many, his memory will live on forever in our hearts, his courageous struggle, and your forever unwavering loyalty. A very Happy Birthday to your sweet girl Emma, she is a beautiful young lady.
    Hugs friend,
    Jo
    xx

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    1. Thank you Jo, for all your prayers and kind words. It means so much to me. Bless you, xoxo, Susie

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  2. What a lovely young lady, and how wonderful the love she shared with you and your dear husband. Sending prayers and love across the miles for you.

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    1. Billie Jo, I so appreciate the prayers. We all need prayer and those offered up my others is a wonderful gift. My grandgirl is growing up. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  3. Sending you special hugs and love today, Susie! Happy birthday to Emma!

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    1. Thank you Nellie. Emma's is our youngest grandchild, now the greatgrands are even growing up. Bless you, take care, xoxo, Susie

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  4. So nice to have you pop up here, Susie. Sometimes, I have seen your thoughtful comments on our mutual friends' blogs. This grieving is quite the journey. Take good care...

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    1. Hi Vee, Yes, honey the grieving journey is long and has rough spots. I always thought I was very strong, but Ted's death put a crack in my armor. I am working on getting it mended. I am grateful for your understanding and kindness. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  5. I love you, Susie and I am so happy to see you here again - and doing this for Emma is so fitting. I learned so much from you back when I had my older grands and before the quads. You taught me so many things by watching what all you did with your Emma.
    I pray for you everyday and stiil have the picture of you and Ted on my fridge....the one you sent me years and years ago.
    Your Ted was loved by all who read your blog and we all grieve with you.
    Happy Birthday to sweet Emma!!! And all my love for you, our dearly beloved Susie Q.

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    1. Linda, I am blessed to have such wonderful friends I have made thru blogging. We can feel like family without every meeting in person it seems. Thank for your sweet prayers and words. I always wanted Ted and LD to meet, because I felt they were so alike. I am very proud of our Emma. She is an amazing young lady. I hope one day she will tell of the days we crafted and did fairy gardens. Good memories. Blessings to you and your family. I love you all, xoxo, Susie

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    1. Thank you sweet girl. I pray for my blog family everyday. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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    2. I moved from Indianapolis on March 10...1000 miles to Florida...from one family to another...I thought of you as I moved...I have enjoyed your blog so much...hopefully, it will help you. prayers prayers

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  7. Beautiful little doll🥰. I know you miss your sweetheart, I pray each day heals your heart more and more. Sending hugs and prayers your way🙏🏼

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    1. Thank you Theresa. Your prayers mean so much to me. I sure do need them. I keep all of you in my daily prayers too. I will tell Emma all the good things everyone has said. Bless you, xoxo, Susie

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  8. So good to see your post today. Happy Birthday to your special girl. Grief is different for everybody, It's been over 20 years since my husband died and he's still very missed. Hope you'll continue to keep in touch

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    1. Thank you honey. I know the sharp pain of loss can ease, but the longing never goes away. I know God will hold Ted in his arms till I can once again. Thanks for the birthday wish for Emma. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  9. Hi Susie! It was so nice to see a post from you. I definitely remember your lovely Emma. I'm glad to hear you are seeing someone regarding grief. It is such a personal thing and everyone deals with it in their own way at their own time. Take care. -Jenn

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    1. Thank you Jenn. I still cry , I haven't cried all for awhile. Sadness can weigh us down.
      Saturday was Emma birthday and her prom. She was chosen prom queen and when she went on stage they sang Happy Birthday to her. What a gift. :) Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  10. What a joy to see this alert. We cannot know how you feel, but we know as life goes on, one of us will be left. It does us good to hear from someone who can talk about it. Hang in there. Thanks for the pictures, love 'em. sending love your way, Sherry & jack

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    1. Thank you Jack and Sherry. Please hold each other everyday and always let each other know how very much you love them. Our sweet Emma is growing up. For me it all went to quickly. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  11. It is so nice to see a post from you, Susie. I remember all the time that Emma spent with you when she was little. I know that you miss those days....and I know you are lost without Ted. I am keeping you in my prayers. xo Diana

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    1. Thank you Diana. You have always been a great prayer warrior for so many. I am so grateful for your prayers. Oh yes Emma was the best little crafter. She was always wanting to make something. I hope one day in the future she will tell her own children about what fun it was with Ted and I. You know those special bonds with your own grands. Blessings, take care of yourself and John. Love you, xoxo, Susie

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  12. Oh Susie, I'm so thrilled to see you back on your blog. Thanks so much for continuing to visit mine and share prayers and blessings for my dearest.
    Your granddaughter is so darling, and I can't imagine how difficult it must be not having your sweetheart with you. Will be praying for you!! Love and hugs. Wanda

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    1. Thank you Wanda. I pray for you and Don also. We all need to pray for ourselves and others. The more prayers the better. Our Emma had her prom on Saturday and was chosen Prom Queen. As she walked on stage they all sang Happy Birthday to her. I feel that was a great gift. I know her papaw Ted had to be smiling in heaven. Blessings and love to you, xoxo, Susie

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  13. Your grandgirl is precious. I am sure that you miss your Ted so badly. I have several friends that have lost their spouse and it is so much to deal with. I can't imagine and honestly, pray I never have to know but as I tell my husband sometimes...One day one of us will wake up without the other one. God help us all through each day. Hugs and blessings to you. Cindy

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    1. Cindy, Thank you for the hugs and blessings, it means so much. I hope you and your sweetheart hold each other tight everyday. I am thankful for the years Ted and I had together. Wish it could have been longer. I know he would want me to have Joy again...so I keep trying to heal. My children and grands have helped me . Our Emma still brings joy to me. Blessings to you and yours, xoxo, Susie

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  14. You have a beautiful granddaughter. She still looks a lot like the baby picture. I can only imagine how much you must miss your Ted. How lost you must feel at times. My Mother said to me one time, after my step-dad passed away, Melba, you just don't know how lonely it gets. Take care of yourself.

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    1. Your mom was so right. Especially after we get to the age we no longer work or travel much. Winter time is a hard time too. Hold your honey everyday, and tell him you love him. I was happy about my grandgirl being the loving girl she always was to papaw and I. Blessings to you, xoxo, Susie

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  15. Awww Mom! We were so blessed to have you and Pop to help take care of Emma while I was sick. I knew she was in good hands!!
    I’m so glad to see you blogging again!! That will be good for you. You have a lot of friends on here who really care about you!!
    Love you Mom!!🥰

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    1. Hi my Lizzy girl. I am glad we could help you, you have all helped us too. You know Emma was Teddy Bear's favorite. I miss how they teased each other and then how she was protective of him. I thought maybe blogging would help me to get a bit back to normal...what ever that will be in this new life. I miss my sweet boy. Love all of you, sweetheart. Mommy.

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  16. So glad to see you posting again, Susie. You have been missed. Keeping you in my prayers as you move on forward with your life. (((HUGS)))

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    1. Thank you sweetie, I know that many prayers out there have helped me. I truly believe. Thanks for the hugs too. Blessings to you and yours, xoxo, Susie

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  17. Oh dear Susie...it's so good to hear from you! I think of you often and know how very hard this must be....may the lord bless you always!

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    1. Thank you so much Betsy. I am hoping by connecting again with my blog family, that I will start to feel like myself again. It's been the toughest year of my life. But I am trying to regain my strength. I pray for God's mercy everyday. Blessings to you and your family. xoxo, Susie

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  18. Grief lasts a very long while, Susie. It's the high cost of loving. I'm glad you are seeing someone. I think that's always wise to have one with whom you can talk as you move forward on the journey. And it IS a journey. I am so glad to see you posting - you have been long missed by many, I think, and certainly me. Please come back to us and if you feel you want to share your journey, I know you will find welcome hearts here.

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    1. Thank you Jeanie. The grief dr said he felt I was improving. I feel that being outdoors helps me . I took a nature walk with my daughter on the 1st day of Spring and a butterfly flew up and went to a group of trees and came back and landed at my feet. I took a phone pic of it. Told my daughter to look it up as I had never seen one like it. It was called a Mourning Cloak...the one writing about it said people who are grieving the loss of a loved one usually sees these. I felt that God had spoken to me and I felt at peace when I came home that weekend. I know my Teddy wants me to have Joy in my life again. It is a long journey as you said. I am working on it. Blessings to you sweet friend, xoxo, Susie

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  19. Sending hugs your way, sweet friend. What a special bond they had...the picture is so sweet!!
    I'm glad you are blogging again, I certainly have missed you! Reading your comments to my (very infrequent) posts has been a joy. Your blog community stands with you on your journey through grief, you can count on that!!

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    1. Bless you heart Doris. Your kind words make me happy. Ted and Emma would banter back and forth and laugh till I would almost be crying from laughing at them. I miss all that. ur grandkids have grown up. Emma being our youngest. Now it's great grands ....I love them also, Covid has not allowed us all to be in big groups, maybe this summer. Stay safe and enjoy the family. Blessings to all, xoxo, Susie

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  20. I think it is good that you are seeing a grief doctor. Continued thoughts and prayers.

    All the best Jan

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    1. Thank you Jan. Hopefully a lot of my stressful situation are behind me. The helping Ted's children clean out his woodworking shop so the farm house could be sold. Then finding a house in town. The paper work was and at times still is crazy. Things like address changes, utilities, insurances, etc. Unending honey. So I finally met up with the dr a month ago and have a few sessions. It does help. Blessings to you and yours, xoxo, Susie

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  21. Susie, good to see a post! Your Granddaughter is precious. Thinking of you and hoping you continue to blog. I am sure life has been difficult this last year. I hope you had a blessed Easter

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  22. So good to see a post from you Susie, and a happy birthday to your sweet granddaughter! I know the grief must be so overwhelming. Teddy was such a dear precious man, you can see it in the photos you share, and I pray for you, that the Lord would continue to comfort and support you through this loss. So glad to see you blogging again!

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  23. Thinking of you. Emma is so adorable! Where does he time go? They grow so quickly. I can only imagine how much you must miss Ted. Praying for comfort, strength and peace for you.
    Dolly

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  24. Dear Susie, Everything that you are experiencing is normal. With great love comes great pain . . . you will miss Ted forever in this life, but one day you'll see him again. What truly helps me is knowing that my Steve suffered so much with his cancer and now he suffers no more. The other day Steve's sister said, That if you asked Steve, he would tell you that he's so happy now . . . and he's just waiting for the day you'll be together again. In the meantime he is enjoying everything heaven has to offer. He's enjoying all the many promises of God :)
    Now, I know your heart is broken, believe me I know, but this helps me. We were blessed to have wonderful Christian husbands, not every woman has been so blessed.
    God loves us and He loves our sweet husbands. This life is so short compared to eternity. We have much to look forward too.
    You're in my prayers.
    Remember the feeling that you are having are normal. As hurtful as they are they are still normal.

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